I logged into Facebook for the first time in about a week or two and “on this day” from 8/30/2018 popped up… it was my list of 13 New Years resolutions (13 because, well, it’s one of my favorite numbers).
It’s so hard to believe that…
-I didn’t even have this blog and I think barely started my Instagram account at that point. Let that sink in.
-I wasn’t even in Intro to Judaism class yet. Let me repeat this: I. Wasn’t. Even. In. Intro. To. Judaism. Class. Yet.
-The biggest event–after my first Shabbat at CBI (Pride)–was being a guest to the Sukkot dinner. (I think.)
-I barely knew anything other than the limited amount of things I looked up. I had found some books, but still, it’s a whole lot different when you have a class and attend events that help one learn along the way.
(I legit have tears in my eyes just typing that above. I have come a long, long, long way between not even getting to do RH the proper way to converting early after Shavuot. I don’t think anyone–other than us Jews–really truly understand what is packed into a year, and the meaning of absolutely everything….and for me to be like I only truly started last year… man. Just. Yeah. My heart. I will share my personal RH experience when it gets closer to the end of the month. I hand wrote a couple of pages of thoughts, so I will share that.)
Here’s the 13 resolutions, and my update.
- Write something every day. > Now that I have blog(s), I do write a whole lot more, but I also have written a lot of stuff offline for my writer’s group that I can’t post anywhere because of me worrying about copyright and the opportunities to send my plays in somewhere.
- Start dropping what’s not important. > I can’t believe that I can actually say YES I DID THIS to this. At the beginning of this year, I started saying no to all the activities I really didn’t want to do anymore, and to those I did say yes to, I’ve spaced these commitments out enough that I won’t go insane like last year…cuz, that was just crazy, ridiculous, and something I really don’t want to try again.
- Drink & eat healthier. Less sugar. More green tea. More greens–veggies & fruits. > For the most part I’ve done this. I don’t keep sugar in the house. No sugar in coffee unless it’s from a coffee shop. I drink green tea all the time. I get a lot of greens from eating taco salads all the time. Ha ha. I’m not sure that counts, but whatevs.
- Manage a consistant bedtime & wake up time for extra scheduling during busy months. > Failed miserably. My schedule is all over the place. I sleep when I need it.
- Make more money. > I did have two jobs at one point, then only one again. Got a summer raise tho. So, I guess that counts. But I need to get a second job again sometime soon.
- Purge items that I don’t need. > A few of us friends had two yard sales and I sold some stuff. Got rid of a huge amount of clothes (by donation). Now I’m waiting for the next one so that I can sell the huge mountain of things I have stacked up.
- Purge thoughts/ideas that are no longer valid or negative. > This will always be a working progress. I’m going through my writing and deleting anything from the past that I never want to see again. Mostly things to do with depression unless it’s really good writing. I am slooooowwwwwllly going through anything else written like notes and such, and getting rid of anything negative.
- Make art / creations & start selling them. > I’m still making art, but I haven’t even started with selling it. It’s going to be a long process due to my intense plans to do graphic design and such.
- Create more opportunities towards success, goals, dreams. > I think I’ve failed with this one. Possibly.
- Kill wasted time and time wasters. > Still struggling with this, but “time wasters” are sometimes things that help me relax, so…
- Make time off so I don’t end up having a heart/panic/anxiety attack. > Yep. Learned my lesson in January (after going non stop for 2 separate 100 days first half and end half of 2018). However, the anxiety / panic attack derived from being around negativity so after figuring that out in May, I’m doing a thousand times better. Also, trying to really fix Shabbat to what it needs to be in my life. Very major struggles with that.
- Live up to my full future Jewish convert potential. > I had no idea–when I wrote this–that I was going to be converted already… so I am trying to learn and use what I learn out in the world starting with my inner circles. That’s where it begins. I try to do mitzvahs, good deeds, when I see fit. I’m still trying to find my way, but aren’t we all?
- Help change lives in any of the ways that I can and know how. Hopefully through writing too. > Not sure on this one yet, but I hope… some day.
I found a couple more Elul challenges, but I may be a little late on those, however, I’ll catch up. I think what I’ll do for goals this year is take each day (and what exercises I had to do) and pick something that I need to work on and keep tabs on how I’m doing to possibly do monthly updates or at least have something to talk about next year.